A BLAST WEEKEND...

Last weekend, me and my partner (Toy) had done so many things and I am sure that she feels the same way I did... I surprised her last Saturday (last day at work for the week) then went out for a while with her co workers... They are nice except for some of course...

Then we left and head to Glorietta but it was still closed so we went to SM instead coz the supermarket was already open... When it was already time for the other malls to open (Glorietta), we went straight to stroll, window shop, and have a fantastic lunch... Much to me expecting to have a great day with her, there goes her mood swings... Guess the fatigue from work and the fact that she had not yet slept causes it... But right after lunch, she's ok again =)... Then we continued our stroll and window shopping...

We saw this small food bazaar so we checked the items they were selling... We found this cute little kitten shaped chocs, well actually Toy saw it., and she thought why not buy it for Jewel as a birthday gift... Then popped the idea of why not go to her work place now to have a chat since Toy is still feeling the groove of mall hopping...

Then comes Greenhills, TIMEZONE.. It's like a gold bar that attracts Toy... Who am I to stop her? I am enjoying it as well, just as long as she/we didn't go over out limits, budget limit... (Now I want to play, huhuhuhu)...

So we met with Jewel and we chatted for like 2-3 hrs... Toy having her coffee with an extra shot of espresso, we talked about anything and was not able to monitor the time till it's almost time for Jewel to take a leave, and so are we... But of course, before heading home, we took a quick glance at TIMEZONE... And played again =)...

I thought Toy was already to tired and would want to go straight home, but I guess I was wrong... We walked for like half a mile along EDSA!!!! just to have a closer view of the sedans and motorcycles along EDSA!!!! and it didn't stop there, we even got to sit and have a smoke after... Lucky for me that I convinced her to ride a bus home before we realize we are near our place... And my feet were aching already...

I had my hair done when we got to our building while she was having her nails cleaned... And...... there, time to rest and sleep after dinner... =)

Thinking that we would have a long sleep because of our adventure, oh well, I was wrong again... She woke up too early that we ended up at out fave place to eat breakfast at 630 AM!!!! We stayed there until it was almost 9am... Fun right...

Then I met Carlo, Wani's guy around lunch time, he was nice but a bit reserved...  And Kim with her sister came to our place to swim with Toy, unfortunately the pool's not ready, poor thing... Instead, we decided to have coffee... All six of us, Toy, me, Kim, Cath, Wani and Carlo... And that's how our weekend goes... Time to finally rest and have a good sleep coz it's work week again... =)

#blast days with Toy and her best buds...

LOVING the IMPOSSIBLE TOY

Stubborn but sweet
Harsh but gentle
Immediate traits you show to whoever

Loving and kind
More often a snob
You are like a punch from a glove

To all your enemy
Revenge is your que
Being protective is what you are too

Rewards awaits
For all who aspire
To be with you is all I desire

Indeed a treat
You filled me with joy
Loving you, the IMPOSSIBLE TOY


#inlovewithyou

I TRUST YOU... iloveyou

so for us to have a new start... I mean for me to move on with this... please give me answers...

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Re: yah i do ----- alexa Wrote: >hi...your welcome..do you alexa 09/15 11:02 AM

[no subject] hi! =) AnYa 09/02 12:35 PM

[no subject] hi! mica 09/02 12:33 PM

Friend Request Hi! mica 07/28 7:15 AM

Friend Request Hi! AnYa 07/28 7:11 AM

im sorry... for asking you one last thing... why did you do it??? what's on your mind that time???

I want to know and please don't tell me that it's past, I know, but this happened during our relationship... Being you GF I derserve an honest ans for me to forget all this... Im cool with whatever you say, just as long as it's the truth... WHY?????

WATER DRAGON

Pig Overview

After an extremely favorable Rabbit year, you'd expect a letdown, but that's not likely. Here come another 11 favorable months for you, and you're likely to be in the center of a lot of action! You might find the pace to be a bit much at times, but if you go with it, you'll score some major successes. It's time to take risks, and you want to be especially bold when it comes to education, travel, networking and communication, as these can all flourish in a Water year. If you were smart last year, you kept in step with the Rabbit's slower pace. If you didn't, you might want to start this year somewhat deliberately before revving up your engines and flying with the Dragon!

 

Pig Rating

70% (11 favorable months and 1 unfavorable month)

 

Pig Career

Hopefully you sowed plenty of seeds last year. Now, are you finally ready to reap a harvest? Your career will pick up, but it's looking to be the kind of year where you will have take initiative -- and possibly step outside your comfort zone -- to make it happen. Demand what you deserve. Take new opportunities. Be bold and confident if you decide to switch careers. The Dragon is all about unleashing your enterprising self, so what are you waiting for? With your excellent interpersonal skills, this could indeed be the start of something truly great for you! Best of all, it's likely your skill set -- and your salary -- will increase. You deserve it.

 

Pig Relationships

Did you have nice, quiet time in your relationship last year? Well, the Dragon is about to barge in and shake things up -- although not necessarily in a bad way. The Dragon loves big changes and drama. Is there a wedding in your future? Time to finally end a relationship that's gone stale? This year is about getting real when it comes to love. Don't expect to be able to beat around the bush -- just be honest about what you need and you may get it. If you're single, this might be a whirlwind of a time for you. Romance? Passion? Drama? Absolutely, all three! Know this, though: Romances that start now might burn out quickly, so save your heart for the right person.

 

Pig Health

Most of the upcoming year is looking encouraging for you. Health-wise, keep up the great work; in fact, it might be a good year to push yourself even further. You know that wall you haven't been able to break through with your fitness level? It's time to power through and knock it down! Similarly, how about those eating habits you've been meaning to change? If you aren't careful, you could lose energy and vitality in a very busy year. Pamper yourself with enough alone time, well-cooked meals and the freshest ingredients you can find. A healthy body and clear mind can launch you further into success this year!

 

Pig Wealth

Two years in a row of mucho moolah! Well, maybe not a ton ... but you're likely starting to earn a bigger salary while finding new ways to make money. Keep at it this year. This is a good time to rise in the ranks with your job. If you play your cards right, you could end up far ahead in 2013. Keep budgeting and putting away money for necessary purchases this year. Once your bank account is in great shape, you might be tempted to spend, spend, spend. Indulge a little bit, but save more.

 

 

Rat Overview

Wow. The Water Dragon is so good for you, it even makes the Horse month favorable! And, yes, this could be one of your best years. There are probably only two ways you can mess it up: Sit it out and accomplish nothing memorable, or try to outdo the outlandish Dragon. Sure, this is a great time to take risks, but come on! You know the Dragon may be lucky, but it also crashes and burns more than most signs. Know you can walk away from the table a winner -- and this year, that applies to just about every area of your life. Anything to do with communication, networking or travel could lead you to your heart's desire. Don't let this opportunity pass you by. Fly with the Dragon and make your dreams come true!

 

Rat Rating

76% (12 favorable and 0 unfavorable months)

 

Rat Career

Yes, things might have slowed down last year in your job. The Rabbit is all about being careful -- but not so this year! This could be the time you make humongous leaps and bounds when it comes to work. Those dreams can finally be realized, and no one can stop you. The Dragon thinks big. However, big risks can sometimes bring big failures, so make sure you know what you're doing before throwing caution to the wind. Use triple Water days to negotiate a raise or handle important business. Your enterprising tendencies are favored, so express your ideas and suggest changes at work. Be an innovator. Refresh your skills. Take some training courses in your field. Then, prepare to shoot up the ladder of success!

 

Rat Relationships

Was your love life a little bland last year? Expect romance to blossom and relationships to thrive now. The Dragon is in your animal-compatibility group, and this means that your love life should get a big boost -- surely you've been waiting for it! Now is the time for passion and action. Dive in head-first and move things to the next level. Water lends lovers better communication skills this year, which means long-standing problems can be resolved -- all the better to prepare you for tougher stuff ahead. Emotions will run high, and adventure will probably be the name of the game. The Dragon favors celebrations of all kinds, including marriage. Is now the time to take that leap? Give boredom the boot, spice things up and take some risks!

 

Rat Health

The Rabbit year probably tempted you to stay indoors and indulge some of your couch-potato tendencies. Well, get up and get moving already! It's pretty likely you'll have the energy for it since every single month is predicted to be favorable for you. Your health should be strong this year, but be careful about wearing yourself out or trying to prove something at the expense of your well-being. Make time for rest. Since life will move quickly, make plans early on to fit an exercise routine and nutritious meals in with all that traveling, gallivanting and networking. It's looking like a great year to try extreme sports such as mountain climbing or surfing. Channel your high energy into getting into peak shape. Remember, a healthy body means clarity and focus for achieving your goals!

 

Rat Wealth

Another reason to be jealous of you this year, Rat! Probably no other sign will fare as well as you will with money. Last year you likely put all your pawns in place, and this year you'll knock out your opponents' royalty pieces, one by one. Finally, you should have the money to live the life you've been dreaming of! You've been nurturing an orchard of ideas for several years, and now it's ready to produce big, luscious fruit. Be careful not to celebrate too lavishly, though, for if you're typical of your sign, you probably enjoy spending money as much as making it. Consider all offers before making big purchases -- you can probably afford to be picky.

 

THE CAUSE

I have been debating with myself for the past few months. And I haven't figured out why I have been like this. This morning when I was browsing my previous tweets, I realized that it wasn't all me all this time. I didn't caused this to myself, not me alone. It was Toy mainly and me. She aggravated me, my moods, my curiosity, every feeling I have. I know that whenever I feel frustrated or whenever I am confused, I get more emotional and I tend to freak out but by the time I get some clear answers, I'm good and okay. But with her, things are always unclear, reasons not justified enough to still leave me thinking. I am not used to the situation where I have to figure out what's happening. I am more of a straight to the point kind of person. But Toy, she's my opposite. She never get to the main topic. She always find ways to manipulate the topic until it's too messy and tangled to even tackle up. I am not the problem. I just can't handle her being like that. Now that I have found the cause, how should I deal with it? Should I ignore her if certain issues come up??? Should I not get too involved with her mood swings or her manipulative powers over my emotions??? I don't know... But I'm sure as hell that I am not the problem... And this should give me a good start to better deal with her.

AND FOR A NEW START

And we're still together. Or should I say that we held on and gave things another shot of a chance? I almost lost the only one person I want to be with. Almost. I died but I didn't let my pride take over me. Starting over, if it's even possible. Giving one another a chance to get things right. We are taking one step at a time. Tackling one topic at a time and figuring out ways to improve the situation.

I'm not sure how we are going to pull this one off but I'm hoping we can. However hard things may go, I swear I'm not gonna let it ruin what we have without trying my hardest. I know it's tiring both of us having the same arguments every single time, but it's worth a shot to really start over and discuss things over.

With this chance, I promise to never let my emotions get ahead of me and try to talk to her. But I also need her to do her part to ensure the success of what we are trying to build here.

Trust issues, I trust her, I do. But there are some things that just don't feel right. And that even I can't convince myself that it's just me overreacting and over thinking. I just need to feel secure, that's all. I want to feel that I'm important and that I mattered. I am not the type who demands but this time, I think I have to tell her what I want and needed. I just hope she listens.

BEEN THERE DONE THAT....

I am at a total loss at what's really going on.  One day we're okay then the next day, we're not. Simple things always led to arguments. It made me frustrated most of the time. She even brought up parting ways in some of our arguments. At times I wanted to just end everything but she won't. Not that I don't want it, I'm always thankful that she held on. But she's getting harder to deal with everyday. I don't seem to get her mood swings. I'm really lost and confused.

The moment she told me she's hard to be with, I told her it's fine with me, I can bear and I will try cause she's worth it anyway. But now, realizing how hard she really is to understand, I don't know if I can still bear.

I find her arrogance annoying and her being self-centered. But I still love her. I have been doing every adjustment I know to keep this relationship, to keep her. I tried being sensitive to her needs, but I felt like if I continued that, she will soon take me for granted. Prioritizing her above me and anything else made me too vulnerable. I can't be like that. I know how bad it is for me to love someone that much. Now I'm trying to put myself first before her, but this seems worst. I felt neglected and unimportant. The way she ignored me as if I was never there. It hurts like hell. And I can barely contain my emotion to the point that I burst out.

I love her, of all the reasons why I should give up, I still hold on for that one and only reason. I love her more than anything and I can't deny it. No matter how I lie to myself, it's the truth. I have never wanted anyone else like her. But that love is poisoning me little by little. So I have to protect myself.

Protecting myself doesn't mean I will have to love her less that before. Oh I am more in love with her now and everyday I love her more and more. But I have to control my feelings before it controls me.

I don't know what to do now. How I should continue. I hate it whenever she's like that, stiff, rigid, frozen, hard. I'm lost and I don't have anyone to talk to about this.