c/o FB

no more pains of yesterday, no more traces of tears, not a memory to treasure, not worthy of anything at all..... just a mark, a mark that will forever remind me of the things i must, i should and i could forget....... what is it again?!?!?!?!?

my intentions were clear, I just want the world to know that I have moved on.. I've finally moved on...

some might think I'm crazy, that I'm just fooling myself, but guess what... I just can't feel anything.... Nothing at all...

When I did "this", I was so decided to really put an end, on everything... Coz I was so hurt that I've lost my will to live... I've disregarded so many people, those people who love me more than I've ever imagined... When I was saved, all that I felt that time was humiliation... I can't look into their eyes... I know they were all worried, but most of them, shocked... I could never blame them... I was strong, outside, but little did they know that I was dying inside...

No one ever asked me why I did it, not even my parents... But I saw the tears that they tried to hide from me... It pains me more to know that I have failed them... Every one of them...

That night, I heard nothing from them, we just let the evening pass as if there was nothing wrong... They're all just visiting and hanging out with me... With uneasy feeling, stabbing sights of disappointments... But deep inside, everyone of them wants to reach out to me, coz I've locked myself away from them for too long...

I used to be strong, until now, I didn't know what got into me...

I didn't regret anything that I did except that I disappointed them... I'm so sorry...

Now...

I don't know....

But I'm happy.... I am...

Can't remember any of the pains of the past, really, I can't.... And I've totally lose all the other feelings that I used to have... And it's a good thing right?!?

finally found you......

My life changed
the day that I met you
The wish I made on every star
has finally come true!

I'm so happy when you're around
& you always make me laugh
My empty, lonely, searching soul
has found it's other half

I feel complete now
Moreso than I've ever been
You're more than just a lover
You're a friend who's heart I win

I never have to question
If the way you feel is true
You have shown me everyday
& I believe in you

You were made for me, BUBZ
I know it in my heart
I know it's just beginning
But what a beautiful way to start!

you gave me the gift of love
& I gave my heart to you
Been a stranger to being loved...
Not until I met you.

untitled

i have locked the door upon my heart
and wouldn't let anyone in
i have trusted and loved only to be hurt
and that will never happen again

i have locked the door and tossed the key
as hard and as far as i could
love will never enter there again
my heart was closed for good

then you came into my life
and made me change my mind
just when i thought that tiny key
was impossible to find

that's when you held out your hand
and prove to me i was wrong
inside your palm was the key to my heart
you had it all along

- g.a. 1996

BUBZ......

nothing left for me to say....

thanks for coming into my life....

iloveyou..............