promises...

too many of them have already asked
will you marry me, will you be my wife????
all of them I answered back with
yes... i will and i love you....
but not none of them, not one of them
has ever full filled that promise...
yes it's so nice to hear someone
wanting to be a part of your life forever
but they are just words....
promises that aren't ever secure...
marriage for me is sacred... still is
but having to experience all of these
again and again and then left disappointed....
i don't know how to react
if someone will ask me again....
there is nothing wrong with being asked
if I want to be their wife,
if I will marry them...
it's the afterwards that concerns me...
then what??? all but words...
promises without meaning...
a dream that will never come true...
so please understand
if I don't seem happy and eager
with the idea of marriage
I've been promised many times before
but was left hanging...
so now, it's just that...
I'd rather want to hear
let's get married... now.... =(